Passion Carries A Sharp Sword

Verse of the Day:

Isaiah 26:3

I was there because I wanted to be 

apart of something new, exciting and great

I wanted something fulfilling that I could pour into 

Something picked by fate. 

I was there because I invested my time and energy into a job I didn't choose but that I felt chose me....for a season....and then something unexpected happened....I fell in love with teaching and  who I was becoming because of it. 

I was there because it gave me a voice, it gave me a part to play that was important and valuable, I was excited to learn, excited to teach and bring all I had to share to the table. 

I was here because I healed here until it started to hurt,

I was here because I had grown to love them even as things grew worse,

When I couldn't smile 

When I couldn't laugh

When I couldn't be a light

When my prayers felt unheard 

And I cried myself to sleep at night

I woke up every day to say "I'm here to be of service" 

I don't know if it was stupidity or some new type of what some would call courage. 

I was here because they were the reason I grew as a person...the reason I outgrew my comfort zone and learned to put Yahweh first. 

I was here because I thought that maybe...just maybe.... this.... this 

and my passions could coexist,

But I was wrong....so very wrong 

And it hurts me to my core

So much so that I can't even look my students in the eyes anymore. 

So when I say I would have done anything, just know that I have. I gave all I could and I still would and it kills me because ......I felt like I should.....

I gave them what was consider the best of me .... I EARNED Mrs. Jasmine as my name.

Don't you ever dare to dream that you think you understand 

With my heart bleeding this poem 

like a river into my hands 

I promise you.....

rest assured 

we are not the same.